Accepting help can be difficult

I’ve always been more of a giver than a receiver. It’s been a huge part of my identity and one of the ways I feel most fulfilled and purposeful in this world. Cancer really flipped the script for me. Not only did I need to rely on my mom financially, since I had been volunteeringContinue reading “Accepting help can be difficult”

My beautiful henna crown made all the difference

While we made the hair loss and shave experience fun and memorable, I was still worried about actually going out into the real world while bald. I knew if I didn’t do it early on, I may never have the courage to do it, and I wanted to try to be comfortable in my ownContinue reading “My beautiful henna crown made all the difference”

How to make shaving your head more fun

I decided to embrace my hair loss as much as I could, instead of fighting it, so I shaved my head after my second chemo session. If you’re keeping track, that’s the day after my first date with Ilan and just after I started noticing hair loss. Taking intentional action definitely made me feel likeContinue reading “How to make shaving your head more fun”

When your hair falls out on a first date

It was just a week and a half after my first chemo treatment when my hair started falling out. I knew it would happen around then, but it’s hard to prepare for. It was Saturday, August 20, 2016, a date that I’ll never forget. I was relaxing with two friends by the pool and itContinue reading “When your hair falls out on a first date”

When anticipation ends and treatment begins

It was a large hospital complex, with multiple tall white buildings all named after different people. My mom wasn’t feeling well that day, and I didn’t want her to accidentally get someone who is immunocompromised sick, so we decided she wouldn’t come to my first chemo appointment.  Instead, my best friend and I walked throughContinue reading “When anticipation ends and treatment begins”

So it’s cancer, but what’s the actual diagnosis?

Thursday afternoon, just a couple hours after the biopsies, I took a greyhound bus for 3 hours to get to my friend’s house. This was the friend that had Leukemia many years prior. I planned to spend the weekend with her and her family, not expecting my biopsy results right away but also knowing itContinue reading “So it’s cancer, but what’s the actual diagnosis?”

Diagnostic process in the United States

Coming back to the United States, I knew my experience with the healthcare system would be different. I was fortunate that my mom had already made a consultation for me, so just a few days upon my return I was sitting in a breast specialist’s office with my mom. We both had no idea whatContinue reading “Diagnostic process in the United States”